Back from Sweden

I am not sure really where to begin. First of all let me start by apologizing for letting almost 2 months go by without a blog entry here. My family in Sweden were in a car accident. They were hit by a drunk driver and in the process, my mother was killed and my father has been permanently hospitalized. My younger brother broke his leg and his wrist and has some damage to the skin on several parts of his body. I had to fly back to Sweden to be with them and provide support to my father. I can't believe that she is gone. My whole life got flipped upside down with one phone call. I canceled my membership to the online dating site because I knew I was going to be away for a while and I wasn't really in the mood to be talking to any women etc. My job said I could take a leave of absence no problem. I emailed the girls I had been talking to etc telling them what happened etc and that I would be gone for a while. They were all very understanding and I haven't heard from them since.

I have been back in Phoenix for a week now but I really wasn't sure what I was going to do with myself etc but I realized this morning that what my mom would want for me is for me to be happy and I know I need to have a woman in my life to be happy so I decided I would get up off my ass and do what I need to do to make that happen. I decided I would rejoin the online dating site and get myself back out there. When I am done with this blog entry I am going to join the site again and I am going to start fresh. None of the girls I was talking to before were really the ideal kind of woman I want. I am going to look through the dating site at all the new girls that have joined the site I was last looking at it. I know that a lot of new people join the site every week so there will definitely be lots of girls to choose from since it has been almost 60 days.

When I do my online profile this time I am going to write something different than last time. I am going to make my profile very very detailed. The way I see it, I owe it to myself to be as honest as possible about what kind of girl I want in my life. The thing is, I am not really sure what kind of girl I want in my life and I am going to need to spend some time tonight thinking long and hard about this. I am going to list all my likes and dislikes and I know that I am probably going to scare away some potentially hot girl but without doing this I will probably end up with in a relationship that will not last very long and eventually fall apart.